My Story
I went for a massage, and everything changed.
I have always tried to hold on to the magic I felt growing up in a tropical country –to be forever playful, heaping with passion and filled with curiosity. I was raised with beauty in all directions, where nature has countless breathtaking terrains and people welcome you with the most colourful cultural lattice you can imagine. My world was hypnotizing drums, waves to ponder in front of, legendary stories and hello-kisses.
My language was music and I moved in Spanish.
Moving to Canada was a profound change. I adapted, I absorbed, and I pivoted, as any young woman would in a new country. But by early 2017, the cracks were showing. On the outside I was remarkable: studious, industrious, and eager. I was on track to get an interior architecture and design degree from a good university in Toronto. My game face was deeply intact. However, like a lot of young people, the arrow of my life was pointing in a direction not of my own making. I was starving for meaning and following scripts not written by me. The map I was following was not the terrain.
Do you know this feeling?
On a more intimate level: like many women, I never really saw myself as a WOMAN, full capitals. I felt like I was missing out on something, that “magic” we carry, and that I hadn’t grown into it yet. Some say they feel like one once they give birth or when they get some other clue, but I’m speaking more on a mythic level. I had always felt like a girl, a student, a worker, a lover, a daughter, a friend, but never really the woman that I aspired to be. And in turn, I wasn’t really treated as such; I felt broken and disconnected from myself, my radiance, and my bodily pleasure. And even so: to FEEL it, as the embodiment of the woman that I feel today. And that’s the thing! We try to be logical about how we define ourselves. We may judge ourselves by other people’s perception and expectations of the public versions of us, specially behind digital screens. When we share stories, we fundamentally use words or feed our easily fooled eyes. Tell me, if you want to believe what you are seeing, don’t you instinctively reach out to touch it to make sure it’s real? We tend to approach these kinds of topics in theory, but instead I craved to approach myself in practice, as a full human being. Does that make sense? A massage totally made sense for me.
““A story must be judged according to whether it makes sense. And ‘making sense’ must be here understood in its most direct meaning: to make sense is to enliven the senses. A story that makes sense is one that stirs the senses from their slumber, one that opens the eyes and the ears to their real surroundings, tuning the tongue to the actual tastes in the air and sending chills of recognition along the surface of the skin. To make sense is to release the body from the constraints imposed by outworn ways of speaking, and hence to renew and rejuvenate one’s felt awareness of the world. It is to make the senses wake up to where they are.””
In a desperate need to gasp for air in the midst of my own chaos and burnout, I did some Google searching and found a world of sensuality, wisdom and grace. So, I wrote wishful emails into the wind. I made an appointment and arrived at this sacred massage temple tense, brittle and quietly hopeful. We shared philosophical questions and listened very carefully to the stories behind the stories. It was encouraging to have someone paying such close attention to me. Entirely the opposite of what most of us encounter in our regular lives. It was so clear to me once I surrendered to the process; it revealed my inner life and started to unveil the light, intention and connection that I believed had been extinct in this modern world, using just oil and intention. It was deeply inspirational and stopped me in my tracks. It makes it impossible to live only in your head. You must inhabit your body and listen to its deepest story, in poetry rather than prose. Osho’s teachings resonate here: "Truth is not something outside to be discovered, it is something inside to be realized."
Such slow, immersive touch seemed to work under my day-to-day persona and unlock my native sensuality, inner life, and sacred truths. It was just so beautiful. When you’re suspended in the present moment during the experience, it is so clear see and FEEL yourself as a full person, with infinite layers and rich possibility. This amazing process showed me that these were merely ways into who I was being called to become. In many ways it was only natural to find myself captivated by this kind of experience, as it is musical, flowing and pulsing with energy. All in all, this experience inspired a whole new standard for touch and awareness for my life, and consequentially, my other senses had to follow suit. It is very powerful work, and I believe deeply in its power. So much so that I have passionately dedicated myself to this and to bring this healing, expansive world back to people. So, I created Gemmasphere (the G is pronounced like an H, because my name is in Spanish.)
This was the beginning of my ardent commitment to my personal, sexual and spiritual growth.
Of course, the heightened awareness and contrast of the old vs. the new Self implored me to let go of what was no longer serving me, what was holding me back, the ways in which I was holding back and staying in my own comfort zone. Without proper guidance and integration, I found myself back into old patterns, limiting beliefs about myself, heavy emotions, fear and frustrations. I felt clouded by challenge and misleading projections. Most of these are a set of unconscious habits and thought patterns so ingrained within us, and this makes up for 95% of our behaviour; plus, a great deal of our suffering comes from thinking of how life “ought” to be. The Unconscious Mind is what drives our model of the world, our fight-or-flight reactions, our emotional state, the way our energy and our bodies run, our self-image, and ultimately, the choices and the results we create. Your immune system also eavesdrops on your thoughts and self-talk. It didn’t take long for my body to respond through an inexplicable, paralyzing, chronic hand injury–so, what would a masseuse do now?
Sometimes when you gain such clarity at the peak of bliss or at the verge of your next level, life drops tests that show you where you’re actually at and asks you, “Do you believe you got what it takes? Are you sure? How badly do you want this? Do you know who you are?”
I was in a make or break situation that had me on pause for six months. Hello, existential crisis! I experienced both the worst of my psyche (blocked communication and creativity, low desire, mistrust, anxiety, depression, disconnection from my purpose, heartbreak, harsh inner critic, etc.), and the best of what I had cultivated in my ecologies thus far (my beautiful inner circle of friends, gratitude for what I do have, asking for help, setting healthier boundaries, investing into my well-being, etc.). The beauty is that I persisted no matter what, against all odds. Or what I perceived to be at odds. At a pivot-point, I reached out to a Personal Growth Coach with over ten years of experience and on my birthday I gifted myself a Breakthrough session. This process immersed me into an amazing combination of modalities including NLP, Time Line™ Therapy, Quantum Linguistics, Hypnotherapy and other ancient and modern performance technologies. The results are powerful and they are 100% guaranteed. My life completely changed within one session.
““When our behaviors match our intentions, when our actions are equal to our thoughts, when our minds and our bodies are working together, when our words and our deeds are aligned … there is an immense power behind any individual.” ”
Then, COVID hit! Thank you, Life, and to answer to your previous question: YES, I GOT THIS!!! I went from survival mode, to thriving mode with such ease! My injury fully healed within two weeks, plus it turned out to be the biggest blessing and a lesson in disguise. It was an obstacle that became a detour, that guided me to where I was meant to be. It added more depth, gratitude and complexity to my service. The expression of my work overflowed with loving grace, awe-inspiring creativity and intimate energy. It all taught me how to heal and reveal my true Self. During a pandemic, this was groundbreaking and so vital. I embarked myself on a heart-centred mission.
After my Breakthrough, I felt so liberated and empowered; everything flowed without fear and my thoughts were propelling me. I was no longer dreaming small and in fact, I was riding the momentum into my next moves as a leader and entrepreneur, into my ten-year vision. Once I started to honour myself and make powerful choices that are in line with my intentions, I was attracting the results I truly desired. So during lockdown, I committed to the mastery of my offerings so you be guided into your own liberation and fulfillment. You can be sure that I never bring anything to the table (virtually, literally and metaphorically) that I haven’t tried and tested on myself first. Soon, my clients began to transform their lives and make their dreams come true too.
Since then, I have been teaching myself and others how to tap into the power of our creative life-force, the Unconscious Mind and behavioural neuroscience, the art of touch, super-charged intimacy, quantum leaps, spiritual awakenings, and how to channel our unique gifts out into the world. I have earned certifications and conscious knowledge in the methods that transformed me, my life, my relationships and my four businesses. I have understood, in tangible ways, the ways in which unleashing our potential can bring health, wealth and Love.
Honestly, I feel this is only the beginning!! Stay tuned!
All this to share with you.
I welcome you to my own space, the sphere, where you can let go of your old self, experience revelatory and loving bodily pleasure, and create a blueprint for your own well-being.
Let me show you who you might be.
I share a part of my own journey, my skills and what I am learning along the way with you, to hopefully motivate you to take a leap of faith and honour your wishes, your true values and for you to pay attention to how you’re really doing in this world. Seek, ask, believe and you shall receive.